CAUSES OF VACILLATION.
The question is often asked, "Why is it that people fail to keep a
steady experience in holiness?" In answering in a general way we remark
that in the things of grace people get all they live for. Holiness
resides in the heart, and, as a consequence, the causes of vacillation
may be found in heart conditions, or in things that influence those
conditions. If your experience has been vacillating possibly you may
find the secret of this unsteadiness in some of the following
observations. If so, thank God for the discovery, and turn it at once to
practical account.
Probably the greater number of vacillating professors of holiness never
attained this rich experience. They have repeatedly gone forward in some
holiness meeting or convention, consecrated themselves to God, repented
of numerous shortcomings, and been greatly blest; but in a short time
they have been down again. Then they say, "I have lost the experience of
holiness," are reproached by others for their lack of faith and called
doubting Thomases. But all this time there has been a questioning in
their minds as to whether they really got what they thought they did.
The real experience may be lost, however -- from lack of faith, from
failure to trust God implicitly. Our faith must "stand not in the wisdom
of men, but in the power of God." But there come trying circumstances,
when all hell seems to surround the soul; then there enters the heart a
distrust of God's ability to keep from falling. It is the devil's
business to inoculate us with this insidious thing, If possible; but
remember the promise, "They that trust in the Lord shall be as Mount
Zion, which cannot be removed, but abideth forever" (Psa. 125: 1). Then
hold still, and if you are really sanctified, you will come out with
flying colors, knowing more of God than before. But where faith fails
there is generally some other reason further back that is the cause of
its failure, and we should be strictly honest and lay the blame at the
right place.
Another sure cause of unsteadiness is a lack of watchfulness. The devil
is always on the alert, always looking for an opportunity to take the
citadel of "Man-soul" by storm. To offset this Jesus said, "Watch." We
are fighting with an unseen adversary. We must watch in every direction
and all the time. A great many become careless for a time, and in the
unguarded moment are overtaken by the enemy and fall.
Still another occasion of vacillation is the lack of self-humiliation
under all circumstances. We say lack of self-humiliation, for though
pride be gone, yet there may arise circumstances, or a complication of
circumstances, under which if we refuse to humble ourselves, though
clearly in the right, we are, to say the least, in danger. Every change
of circumstances should be seized by the sanctified soul as a fresh
reason to go down before God. Resentment of slander, reproof,
correction, insult, or any trying thing, leaves the door open and sin
enters. But in all these conditions, and in success as well, the soul
should constantly abase itself before God.
A failure of resignation may forfeit the experience. Under trying
circumstances the temptation would be to rebel, and force our way out;
but the resigned soul saves itself many perplexities by holding still
under the trial. If the sky is black and lowering, the sun will shine
all the brighter after the clouds roll away. Madam Guyon says if we
fight our temptations, they will only grow worse, but if we let them
alone and trust God they will soon leave."
Carelessness in respect to the outward life is another source of
vacillation. Bramwell's advice was, "Reject everything in the present
that would in the least draw you from the love of God." God desires that
we glorify him in our lives. As never before, the soul when sanctified
avoids the appearance of evil. He holds himself to the clean, Bible
line, and makes no provision for the flesh to fulfill the lusts thereof.
Self-denial is his rule of life, and very often the secret of
unsteadiness may be traced to some self-indulgence that grieves the Holy
Spirit. We should constantly remember that even a little inattention to
the suggestions of the Holy Spirit will dull the edge of grace. When the
soul is clean, it more readily discerns evil than before. The first
heavy feeling should be heeded and the mistakes which occasions it
rectified, or the conscience will lose its tenderness and then it is not
very far to the bottom.
A failure to press earnestly forward will deaden the soul. We must not
think that because we are cleansed there is no more for us. The bread
made this week is good, but it will mold next week; so more must be
made. When God especially blesses us there is danger of getting elated
and stopping to glory in the blessing instead of pressing on to greater
victories, and thus we lose the freshness and sweetness the blessing was
intended to impart. Bramwell says, "Never imagine that you have arrived
at the summit. No; see God in all things, and you will see no end."
But the one great occasion of vacillation is a lack of prayer. It is
needless to quote the many scriptures that exhort us to this blessed
exercise. Let this one suffice: "Praying always with all prayer and
supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance
and supplication for all saints" (Eph. 6:18).
"Prayer makes the darkened clouds withdraw,
Prayer climbs the ladder Jacob saw;
Gives exercise to faith and love;
Brings every blessing from above.
"Restraining prayer we cease to fight;
Prayer keeps the Christian's armor bright;
And Satan trembles when he sees
the weakest saint upon his knees."
A great many persons go through mere forms of prayer, and then wonder
why they do not reach soul victory; but life of prayer in the Spirit is
ever a victorious life.
Other causes of vacillation might be mentioned, but the heart that will
be true to God will discover the treacherous wiles of the devil intended
for his overthrow. He will also be quick to discern the gentle leadings
of the Holy Spirit, drawing him to a life of deeper devotion and of holy
yearning, and to an ever-deepening self-abasement. As a consequence he
will be filled more and more with the burning love of God. 0 Grace!
where dost thou end? With cords of love thou dost draw our willing souls
into thyself, renewing us evermore in the image of thy divine Author.
Glory to God for this matchless fullness! |